i always thought that I'm okay with it I'm just fine with it.
but only until today then i realized that I'm not okay with it I'm seriously not okay with it. I mind a lot a lot everytime people say things about me i just think that i never heard it or rather i don't really care about it its just some sound coming out from their mouth but today i realized that I'm wrong, really wrong. But for that i hope just because I've heard it for many years i don't feel like caring about it anymore cause i have more important things to do.
but not only them, even the old ones do that to me. even though they never say things about me but they seriously "cared" about me. everytime i have his lesson he will ask me have i done his work and i said i only do it until here then the next thing he would say is YOU ARE SO SLOW, EVERYONE ELSE HAVE ALREADY DONE THIS AND DOING THE  NEXT THING ALREADY, FASTER DO AND DON'T WASTE TIME! then i would be always thinking has everyone done this as in everyone the whole class? has everyone? then i would look around trying to search for people who are slower than me then i will be finding a lot of them slower than me why does he have to say this to me. maybe he wants to make me do thing faster? if its so why not tell this to the whole class or rather other people? why only me? i HATE it when he say I'm SLOW and I'm slacking when I'm not!! I'm not!! maybe not all the time at least most of the time I'm NOT!! its like very obvious that people are slower than me people are still doing their first week's homework and I'm not and so why call me SLOW. he says that we must respect others but i don't think he did even respect other and he is teaching us respect why would there be people like this?? sometimes you may just think that its just words from your mouth and you don't really want to mean it but things may just hurt people in their heart and just affect their entire life.
i had this misunderstanding 3 years back people say that I'm saying bad things about them and they just trying to avoid me and don't be friend with me, this led to me being more and more and more emo and hence till now I'm still emoing even though we are still "friends" but i really don't know which identity am i going to use to be their friend. who just am i?? sometimes it just so close yet so far!!
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7:10 AM

Its here!!

12:17 AM

Its coming 

6:27 AM

2010 came long ago and schools came long ago too.

6:59 AM

its 31 December 2009 and so let us say good bye to 2009 & welcome 2010!!
tomorrow will be the very frist day of 2010 already
time really flies and very fast
its been a very nice year of 2009 ,many things have been happenning but its great that everythings had past and theres a brand new year coming up ahead.
have to let go of 2009
hoping that 2010 will not be a scary year cause of the 'O' Level coming up in just a few months to go.
and just hope that 2010 will not be a lonely year as well
have a happy new years eve
and count down to a brand new 2010
10     9     8     7     6     5     4    3     2     1     Happy New Year! ~

1:36 AM

Jingle Bells Jingle Bells Jingle All The Way!!
Its Christmas!!
Wishing Merry Christmas to everyone♥
May all your dreams come true!♥

8:16 AM

school reopening soon !!
things are gonna be quite the same again... - wake up early in the morning, go school, school end go home, sleep at night and the whole process repeats again...
cherish the last holidays...

9:00 AM